Meeehhhh

Messy

Remember when there was a week that i was super productive —waking up early, sleeping well, eating and cooking healthily and exercising all the time? 

Well, that only lasted for about a week, and then I slipped back into my abyss of sleeping at 3 am, waking up 15 mins before class, and skipping out on exercising.

Today was the worst of it, because I was lazy and slept late when I didn’t even have any work to do. I woke up at 2:30 in the afternoon and looked around my room. It was like a tornado ripped through it— my books were stacked high, clothes on the floor.

I am going to fix this tomorrow. REALLY NOW.

This weekend was unproductive

in the practical/physical sense because I really wasn’t able to get much done. But I think I took a big step emotionally. It’s like dropping a sack of flour— such a relief.

Now, on to the second week back since spring break. 6-7 weeks more to go until graduation. My feeling of EXCITEMENT has disappeared a bit. and now I’m a little bit sad. but just a tiny little bit.

Indecision?

Oh the horror of being a Gemini is that I can never make up my mind and commit to something without first wavering like crazy. Or maybe that’s just how I am, and I am trying to blame it on my astrological sign. 

Anyways, I’m back at school now and am attempting to be a more productive person during the last two months of my time here. So I guess as a way to be more productive there are two things that I wanted to do in addition to regular school stuff:

1. write there.

2. restart my Etsy store.

I can’t decide on what. what to write, what to make. I think for now the best thing would be for me to treat this as an online diary and just write whatever the hell I want— just to get me writing consistently. I follow so many different kinds of blogs and I feel like I can never devote that same level of commitment and knowledge to one particular topic. I’m such a flippy-floppy person, I would get out-of-my-mind bored. (But, honestly though, who -on the internetzzz- cares about my life?)

As to what to make, I didn’t really know whether I wanted to start making amateur jewelry again. But since I’m back at school and i didn’t bring any of my jewelry stuff with me, i think my situation has decided itself for me. I have a sewing machine here, so maybe I’ll sew things.

That’s it for now, I need to go drink some tea. Oh, and there’s a stinkbug on my window. ew.

trying something new: personal finance

Graduating from college is one of those things that I have very mixed feelings about. last week, I was depressed that there’s only 2+ months left of book, and that come june, I will have to drag myself together and be a real person (whether I am ready or not). Today I am really excited about it, and can’t wait to work, live on my own and be an independent person. come on real life.

In preparation for real life, I started reading up on some personal finance blogs— and dammit there are so many things to know. I linked up all my bank accounts on Mint.com in an attempt to track how I spend my money. (So this is why my money keeps disappearing..) Finally looked into how much I owe in student loans, which my mom has helped me keep track of; and found out that as human being, I am financially worse than worthless. 

I’ve also been reading up on the different retirement options— is it too early to think about retirement when I haven’t even started working? And how scary is it when online calculators tell me that I will need to contribute 6-7 figures in retirement savings when my bank accounts barely reached 4 digits?

Oh life.

getting sleepier the more coffee i drink?

that’s really the way it works. not so happy about that right now since i’m trying very hard to stay awake and do work. failing to, obviously, since i’m writing this instead. why is being productive so hard?

好肥

I am going to READ.

seriously.